Alright I have lots of shit to vent about today!...but first...I am not using names in this entry so im referring to them as Thing 1, Thing 2, and so on and so on and if you dont know who is who then you will just have to ask me....

Today was not a good day really...it started out okay...and then i thought that something was going on after school with ring mass or something but i didnt no for sure because no one decided to tell me..so Thing 4 told me before 8th period ended that all the juniors were practicing for the ring mass...so i was like alright whatever that cool of Thing 2 to tell me (because it should have) so then i stay after and miss my bus cause i thought we were doing something important....so all the Things were gathered out on the stage and I came out to Thing 1 and Thing 2 and asked what we were doing and it said that they picked the music already...they just did it...so i was like thats all we were doing? and Thing 1 said yes...so that pissed me off because someone was supposed to tell me in which they didn't so I was stuck there until  4 when my mom left work AND! they picked the music without me! its not a big deal that i didn't have an input for the music its the fact that I was the only junior in ministry that wasnt there and didnt get to listen to any part of it! thats just rude....and I was gonna make Thing 2 take me home but it had to stay and Thing 1 didnt even offer to take me home...when it told me that they already picked the music i just walked away cause i was so pissed....so i went into the bandroom and started my homework..and then Thing 3 comes into the bandroom and asks me why im still there and i told it and i had to try so hard not to just break down crying....so it left and i decided i didnt wanna be there anymore so i walked over to Nativity.....So i get there and explain it all to my mom and I just broke down..i couldnt hold it in anymore, i had to cry....it was rude and it wasnt fair and i am very upset about it still....and the vice principal was there an people were walking in and out and it was embarassing that i was crying in front of them like a 2 year old...but they didnt ask what was wrong...they wouldnt have understood anyway....I mean I wanted to go home cause i havent been able to go home after school and stay home in 3 weeks and thats all i wanted to do so i could go home and do my homework and relax...but i figured that i would make someone take me home and it wouldnt be that bad but the fact that i was there for nothing! and didnt get home until 4:30 pissed me off....so i came home and a side note my prom shoes came today...so i tried them on, went online talke to humphreys and calmed down a bit and then it was time to go back up to school for NHS....so i get up there and everything is okay because Thing 1 and Thing 2 werent there yet....so then it was all good and then Thing 1 got there and was upset but it calmed down...and i was kinda upset cause Thing 1 brought it's instrument and so did i but since they played it last night at practice (and i forgot mine) then it got to play it and i remembered mine....so i picked mine up after mr. zimmaro totally ignored the fact that i had mine and put it away cause i wouldnt have used it...not like its a big deal but Thing 1 wants to play its instrument for everything! and i get annoyed about it cuase you really shouldnt play it for concert band especially the stuff we played tonight and it automatically gets to be Thing 1 to play it....so whatever then i have been getting upset that me and Thing 2 arent really very close anymore and it doesnt really talk to me anymore so that was getting to me as well....then the night was over and i was there waiting for my mom and i was talking to Palardy and Phil and Kuhner but then they all left so I went over to talk to Thing 1 and Thing 2 and people so i sat down and no one even said anything to me....i was just there listening to the conversation like Kurilla does to people....so my mom came back so I got up and walked away and no one said bye to me....not one of them....so today wasnt a very good day....i want it to be warmer so i can go sit out on my roof and write in my journal and think and stuff but its too cold at night....but seriously why dontmy friends like to talk to me anymore? seriously its not cool...and i dont wanna go to prom anymore, i dont wanna go with steve....i am losing a lot of respect for him right now and i just dont want to go....my dress is my only motivation..steve is gonna be staring or focusing on chelsea the whole night and hes gonna act like me and him are best friends...and i dont want that cuase we arent....we just arent anymore! im not happy about it but hey it happens and you get over it..i have lost enough best friends to know not to let it get to you.....but i guess this has been long enough and i need to go to bed so ill see you later..

I Wanna Be Happy---AJ McLean

I've seen people come and go

See people forever

As my mother told me

She said don't let life control me

But I did

So what you think of me

What you think of me now

Of who I am

I'm everything you wanted me to be

As you can see I'm not very happy

I need some time to find myself

Within me

And I need some time to find true love

And if I can't then I won't stop trying

And if I can't then I won't live life

What do people really want?

They wanna be happy

I wanna be happy...

I need to vent about somethings but ill be doing that tomorrow after im sure some stuff will build up inside..